I just want to find something for me. I'm okay being lonely because I know its just a weakness. A temporary feeling of insecurity. Feeling alone. I know that when it comes down to it, I have friends. I have people that love me. I know who I am.
I just want to work at a place with people like me. I have tattoos. I like to make people smile. I like to make people happy.
Work is where you spend most of your life. If you don't work with people you like then its like willingly choosing to spend your time with ass holes. The only difference is you get paid. I'm not sure what is worse. I'm just tired of feeling like these people are laughing at me. I am trying my best to socialize and make friends. NO BODY GIVES A SHIT! They have got all of the friends they need. I'm just another bitch that they have to hang out with.
Not by choice.
This experience is so strange. I didn't expect to like this. I do. Do these people like me? Maybe, they don't really seam like it.
Maybe I'm just boring. They don't see me as someone with something to offer them. I just feel like I am in high school again. I hated high school. I'm pretty sure that if I went back now I would still hate it. I'm 22. Every single day I get older. I'm getting too old for this crap. Daily. So many cliches come to mind. So many lines from pop-punk songs. Running through my mind. When shuffle surprises me i get nervous. Discomfort all around. I feel just as uncomfortable as i did at 13. How and why is this possible.
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