In a matter of months we have almost made this day terror of a dream, a nerve-wracking reality. We have been saving like crazy, splurging only on last minute road trips, and many fruitless city visits. Despite all of the procrastinator tendencies, I have never been more sure about anything.
So sure in fact that I only tried to talk myself out of it once. Incredible progress if you ask me.
Regardless, I am excited. The only hesitation I have is feeling like once I arrive I wont miss Redding. I am so scared that I will leave and be okay with never coming back. I know I will indeed end up paying more than a few visits, but the feeling of indifference sends a cold shiver down my spine.
All I can do is wait and see, I feel that actually leaving would be the first step. We will just see what the next few weeks brings us. Nerves, unbelievable nerves.
